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不小心醒了

喝了一罐 500ml 11.8% 的啤酒,好不容易有一点茫了,赶快去睡觉

没想到凌晨 4 点就不小心醒了,不小心的想了想一些事情,结果又睡不着了

于是就这样翻来翻去到5点,还是没睡着,心想不然看个日出吧,结果查了本地日出时间, 06:55,还有两小时……

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好累

好累

真的好累

好累好累

I said “I will come again” but you did not wait for me to go again…

The funeral mass was beautiful, the songs and everything… but i wasn’t able to pay full attention to the lyrics because it sounds like your last words to us and it makes me cry…

Parable (M. D. Ridge)
To everything there is a season
A time to be born and a time to die
A time to plant and a time for harvest
A time to meet and a time to part

Nothing can grow in barren soil
Briars and ravens take their toll
Still there is grain a hundred-fold
From seeds that took root and grew

To everything there is a season
A time to be born and a time to die
A time for joy and a time for grieving
A time to seek and a time to lose

God’s word is like the farmer’s seed
Rooted in joyful, loving hearts
Growing like grain in fertile ground
A harvest that overflows

To everything there is a season
A time to be born and a time to die
A time to plant and a time for harvest
A time to meet and a time to part

 

I was a little out of control during one of the visits. But luckily, we went in a small group that day, so you did not notice me weeping, a little uncontrollably… haha… It’s hard to explain why i wept that day. It wasn’t just sadness but there were so much things in you that touched me. I know that you were in pain but yet… you were so gentle and kind. You accepted your illness and endured the sufferings patiently with no complaints and frustration. How did you manage to do this when you were suffering? So this is what it means to be a Christian… that you trust in the Lord, submit everything into His hands, be gentle and kind even when you are suffering. You may not realize the message that you were passing to us. You were teaching us by making yourself an example for us and I was learning something by watching you… watching how you die.

Fr. mentioned that all of us have an impact on one another. I guess this is part of  what he meant. I am not sure if i had any impact on you but you definitely left an impact on me. I remember the first time when i felt connected to you, probably 1 or 2 years ago. We were at BBH. The elderly who’s mute and deaf usually showed us gestures about happy things. But that day, she was not happy, she was trying to tell us that someone hit her by using gestures. That’s all that we can derived from the gestures. At the end of the session, you told me, “We, who can hear and speak, feel so frustrated when someone doesn’t understand us. I can’t imagine how she feels when she can’t even communicate with us adequately.”

Most of my friends are not interested in discussing about such issues and are only willing to talk about happy things. No gloomy or sentimental discussion is welcomed. It’s not easy to find a friend who can communicate about such things at this level and i really treasure it. I count myself lucky for having a few of such friends.

I remember the last time when i visited you, i was actually a little worried that my presence might be a disturbance. You might prefer to spend your last days with your daughter. Anyway, i went and i am glad that i went. I remember you greeted me with a warm smile. You were holding my hand in silence for a very long time. I don’t know why am i writing this… I just want to keep this memory…

I remember that there was a big divine mercy portrait in front of your bed. I think that’s sweet. I wish to have a big divine mercy portrait in front of me in my final days too. I wish that someone can print out the words of Jesus to St. Faustina and read it to me at my bedside during my last days.

Anyway, to have this opportunity to know you is a blessing.

May the choirs of angels come to greet you.
May they speed you to paradise.
May the Lord enfold you in His mercy.
May you find eternal life.

I am sure I will see the Lord’s goodness;
I shall dwell in the land of the living.
Hope in God, stand firm and take heart,
Place all your trust in the Lord. 

 

 

I just can’t concentrate on my work after your funeral, weeping and weeping but luckily the weather was cold, so it looks like i was just having a cold. I left work earlier that day… i wasn’t able to focus at all, i just wanted to go back and cry

 

月圆日

又是月圆日…
我原以为这次不会看到满月了…
但走着走着,眼帘映入一轮好洁白圆满的珍珠
如此圆满
如此皎洁
如此恬静的挂在夜空中…

不知为何每次看到满月都会如此兴奋
但似乎,兴奋的都只有我一人
他们都不会理解吧
或许都觉得我有点太夸张吧…
其实连我自己也不太理解
可是就是觉得好美,而且每个月只能见那么几天,不珍贵吗?

活在世上缺的不是美景,而是一起欣赏美景的人

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很多事情我好像清楚,却又不清楚
很多东西,我都看在眼里,似乎心领神会
很多细微的举动或变化,我虽然貌似什么都没看见,但却什么都看在眼里
那些微妙的举动或变化,虽然我都看得见,但却不太擅长好好解析

人家说,男女之间没有纯友谊
但或许,女生之间也没有纯友谊
一不小心,你就被人当成对手了…
多么不堪一击的友情…

我也没把自己弄清楚…

人类

人类自古都是如此吧

报喜不报忧

 

 

 

 

好久没听中文歌了
无意间发现这首歌
旋律还可以
但其中一段歌词吸引了我

当人潮都散去
世界突然安静
才听见了我怅然若失的某种情绪

当光影都退去
沉浸于黑暗里
才触摸到我怅然若失的某种情绪

 

 

等到了我要的祝福

今年生日收到好些生日祝福。今天,我终于等到我在等的祝福,心情超好~

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